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[20 Nov 2009|11:13pm] |
i hung out with cheyenne the other day. i am realy glad it happened. we both learned that the other is also not really making any friends in college. it was such a relief. she thought i was running around making all sorts of friends.. and i thought the same about her. in reality, we both just don't really want to be friends with anyone we've met. like, we feel like we are toleratig people, instead of enjoying their company.
what a relief. so we should hang out MORE!
i also just get so giddy around sean. i love him because he has something really pure about him, something so honest, a sort of innocence. and i feel like i can totally relate to that. also, i dont think i've ever been with someone so eager to be around me. someone that gave me such genuine, happy, honest affection. its such a relief. like, when you first sink into a hot bath or something. i don't think ryan had ever treated me that way. i cant believe i didn't think it got any better than him. i hope sean never turns into a ryan. i will lose faith in men.
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[10 Nov 2009|11:17pm] |
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okay. i'm starting to get a little lonely :/
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[21 Oct 2009|04:07pm] |
Fuck the general public. I've just been screwed out off $77 of MY money, so some fucking cunt could go shoe shopping in California. It would be one thing if they had needed the money to pay debts or something(still shitty of them), but they went on a fucking shopping spree with money that wasn't theirs. What does this suggest about the values of the general public?
Fuck Desert Schools, for doing nothing about my fraudulent charges. The person i spoke to basically told me i was being irresponsible with my card (i had it the whole time.. no one could have used my card to make these charges.)and that i could only get my money back if i surrendered my debit card. what the fuck? what kind of customer service is that? first they let someone else make charges from my account, no preventative measures used, and then they tell me it was because I was the one being irresponsible and i should get punished somehow, by either not getting any of my money returned, or the bank taking away my fucking card because it is their property and not mine. What the fuck is this shit?
FUCKING POOPS.
i'm angry as hell.
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[03 Oct 2009|05:09pm] |
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i don't feel right.
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[09 Sep 2009|10:28pm] |
i feel like i'm kidding myself.
my room mates are all superficial-- for the most part. all the guys they bringback are dumb as shit. i dont really talk to a lot of people besides them. i'm witnessing bitchy cattitude first hand, or the first time. girls are mean.
i want real friends again :/
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[11 Jul 2009|06:15pm] |
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i adore sean. he is pretty much everything ryan was not, and then some. he even has a lot of the same weird tendences as i do. not like stupid noises, but small things like poking fake flower foam and shit hahahah. well i'm rambling.
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[25 Jun 2009|12:58pm] |
it's pretty hard to believe it's only been two weeks. seems like it's been much much longer. i think it's because we kind of fizzled out and i guess neither of us wanted to admit it for a while, so i was used to it. it's weird to read through all my saved texts from him. some of them seem like absolute BULLSHIT, others are pretty ironic, and some are just plain sad. i haven't deleted them yet. probably should. i guess i still care. not like THAT really, but a texted him about something a few days ago and he didn't answer. my feelings aren't hurt, but it makes me wonder. what is bothering me, i think, is that he made so many promises and talked about so many things that were positively heart warming. to think that they mean absolutely nothing now makes me wonder if anything is actually solid. he was the most solid thing i had and looooooook, it ended up being pretty crumbly.
i hope this is what bffffaeaeaeaaeae's are 4!??!?
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[12 Jun 2009|07:23pm] |
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:'(
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[01 Jun 2009|04:21pm] |
it's annoying having no plans at all some days, and then everything piles up on one day. i want ryan to come home, and i want to go on a picnic or something with him. that would be fun. assuming he wants to.
i spent yesterday reading about labia(s) bahahaha. well, not the whole day. maybe like an hour tops. it was funny. anyone who reads post secret might understand.
life is so shitty and boring right now. i'm really anxious. i might get my first-ever peticure tomorrow with molly.
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[09 May 2009|10:48pm] |
i'm so ready to just get st00pid! ! !#$^
i don't find romance funny.
"you just need a good dicking", bahahaha.
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[27 Apr 2009|08:22pm] |
Rest In Peace, rowan.
i love how retarded i am. it didn't even cross my mind that you would do anything but live through all your recovery things. Rom what i heard, you were incredibly optimistic through all the shit you had to deal with. all the chemo, radiation, other cancer things that i don't know about. Your optimism is probably what kept my mind from wandering towards your death.
hang in there, mrs. nenning, also.
bleh. dizzy.
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[22 Apr 2009|10:05pm] |
blahhh.
i have too many feelings, they are annoying.
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[21 Apr 2009|09:22pm] |
i am slightly excited about prom.
but things need to get like 200% better, or 200% worse for me to be happy.
he's being nicer, though.
ugh porn
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[20 Apr 2009|08:56pm] |
i wonder how naive i actually am.
feel free to comment and let me know what you think!
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[13 Apr 2009|07:42pm] |
people never cease to amaze me.
i guess i can't say this about everyone, but some are just so insensitive towards others, making me wonder if they ever stop to think about people's feelings beside their own.
i know i'm sensitive about things, but i am just really bothered by how little respect assholes at highland have for others. i may just be pissy because i am on my period, but i feel likes there's like 2 people besides family members who don't bother me right now.
shitsux.
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[30 Mar 2009|08:53pm] |
i loved spring tour, i dont think it could have been much better.
but this makes me sad for next year kind of.
but i'm so glad that i am the O.P. and hannah is the poopmeister's apprentice :D
i love this!
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[16 Mar 2009|11:22pm] |
4chan is so disgusting.
i dont know how anyone can weed through all the cum sluts posting their naked pictures to find anything funny.
bleghhhh.
i have orientation tomorrow, i'm nervous.
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[22 Feb 2009|05:52pm] |
i saw this guy at regionals that just seemed to pop.
when i first saw him i thouhgt "bear"
he doesnt look like a bear. bear. i've seen him somewhere..
but where? where. where where.
god this is so annoying!
i think he recognized me too, cause he looked like he had something to say every time i looked at him.
gah!
bear.
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[17 Feb 2009|10:01pm] |
of course it's about mrs. wayne.
but things seem to be better today, but i still feel awkward. this sucks.
please please please please please get better!!
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[16 Feb 2009|10:05pm] |
Tom tagged me, but i don't want to do this on facebook because my mom might read it.
1. i hate finding hair anywhere other than attached to my body. ATTACHED.
2. i am incredibly dependant; i hate it.
3. i often play the "what if" game with myself until i drive myself crazy.
4. even though i make fun of my own butt, i am really self conscious. i am making fun of it so i don't seem upset by it. but i am, don't make fun of it.
5. i recently started flossing. not because i want healthy gums, but because i like picking all the crap out of my teeth.
6. on the same note, i think that my teeth are none of the dentists business. they are always telling me i NEED to do something, when in fact i dont have to do anything they tell me to do.
7. i am probably jealous of your relationship with your boyfriend or girlfriend.
9. i don't know what kind of a person i would be if it werent for ryan.
10. i suppose you could call me insecure. sensitive. touchy. i dont know how i got this way.
11. i hate driving. it's too stressful.
12. when my life gets too hard or complicated for my liking, i wish i could trade places with spacek.
13. i worry too much.
14. i enjoy simplicity.
15. i honestly have no idea what i will be doing 5 years from now.
16. i am too lazy to have an iPOD. if that makes any sense. i want one, though.
17. i miss my UPS guy, even if he was sort of a creep.
18. i am easily influenced.
19. i hate talking about politics. honestly, its just too complicated and i am afraid if i open my mouth i will just embarrass myself.
20. i have an excellent memory. unfortunately i dont ever remember anything important.
21. i feel like i'm waiting around for my life to begin. which probably isn't good. i feel like everyone around me is getting more out of life than i am. hopefully next year my life can begin.
22. i get annoyed pretty easily.
23. i'm interested in your life.
24. i have an 8 volume diary going. wooo.
25. i love farting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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